♥ much love!

finally the jct is over!!!
just 2 words-utterly disappointed
i'm like literally waiting for the exam time to be over becos my brain was in a total blank.
its my fault actually,for being so ignorant of the importance of studying hard.
i must not feel so helpness during prelims and A's anymore
no more crap excuses jiaying.


ok,random thoughts here now so just bear with it
sometimes i just wish to rewind the time a little
just a little will do.
it may sound silly but humans do have irrational thoughts sometime, i believe?

its not that i want to escape from anything and i know all of us here are beginning to accept all the harsh/unfair realities
realities just come to you,be it you like it or not.
i'm a human afterall and i do have kid-like wishes-tossing a coin into the wishing well and believe that my wish will come true;
trying hard to aim at the hardest spot in the well to convince myslef that my wish will definately come true.
we have fun in those silly acts/thinkings but what ensued behind is cold harsh reality that come smacking at you,telling you all was just an illusion.
& we'll be drawn into a whirlpool.
i really wish to find back the courage-the courage we have inside us when we're small;the courage to be hopeful
harsh realities are really frightening,its like a thief,robbing away all our hopes and belief that we firmly stood by at young.
when we're small,we wish to grow up faster
and now that we've growling up,how we wish that the wish don't come true.

life is just so ironic sometimes
& thats life

♥ much love!

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling
If i'm dreamin
Don't want to let it(hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (i believe it)
And i know that, time will heal it
If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything(quickly i'm learning)
Oooh turn up again (All i know is)
I will be ok
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals tooOooh yeah(It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really love you
I'm gonna smilebecause i deserve too ooh
(It'll all get better in time)

♥ much love!

i know i sldn't have cramped all those work
but i'm seriosly stressed out now
told my dad that i might fail maths to the max
and all he said is nevermind,try harder in the A's
ohwell,the stress that my parents give me is really 0%
but its the expectations within myself that made me to feel so useless now

maybe as what ang said,i think i might cry like shit after the mid-years because i know i'll do badly
because i know i never put in effort
because i know its the most unprepared examinations i ever went through

jiaying,you jollywell don't play your future away.
as much as i dont want to accept,
but a good A lever cert is really important
and the most pathetic of all is that my interest is in finance/business
and i aim to go into the business faculty in ntu
which is a very competitive course there.
so conclusion,jiaying,you better get all the As in the Alevel

damn,i'll be screwing this jct like nobody's business.

♥ much love!

i realised i haven't been replying to tags,
so here it goes(:
yilin&jocelyn:hello there! i haven't seen you girls for nearly a month alr,seeyou both in school soon alright(:

seeyuen:you must jiayou too.conquer the panda alright! i'll accompany you to watch,haha.

nelson neo zhishen: you ar,always flooding my tagboard. be glad i mentioned your name alr.since your name isn't so great,it doesn't matter one la. hohoho

aishah: hello dear tablemate.i'm so sorry about that! :( anyway,it has been AGES since we meet up. imu!



i'm so zzz now that i can bang 897839463 walls down down! grr.

anyhow,i'm dating dearest seeyuen everyday due to chem crash course
yea,its quite tiring sometimes
both of our brains will go zzz after that
but hilarious stuff did happen,
arising from a highlighter
but i shall keep it low(sy,i know you're laughing now) lol

what's so annoying now is that everytime i went into a shop or whatever
i'll say this to sy: omg, somebody once said that he wanted to buy this for me/do that for me
& i realise i mentioned this quite alot times
what's wrong with you jiaying? oh man
goodness

&& on a random note,sentosa trip on tuesday was fun with sy,ht,nelson neo zhishen and gerald
its just so relaxing lying on the beautiful sand
gracious me,i'm playing this hols away as if there no major exams after hols
but it seems that i didnt get as tanned as expected
ohwell

and did you guys realise im ranting on and on
cos currently,i'm having an escaping mood
i'm so not in the mood to read my chemistry
so seeyuen,my aims for the day aren't really so realistic afterall, haha

it's so sucky that gss falls in june
because i seriously have no time for that
but but,i'll get to enjoy the full benefits of gss next year where exams and school rubbish are outta my life temporarily.
great.

& how i admire them.

♥ much love!

nelson neo zhi sheng wanted me to blog.

♥ much love!

i decided to change my blog song
random but ya.
lol


anyway,i'm loving my books now
i hope they love me too.
and studying isn't as torturous as it seemed to be
at least it get my thoughts off somethings.

well,somehow,i like the feel of being a college student
minus the workload and problems faced.
because i feel like a grown up kid after wearing the uniform

after facing so much tough moments in may,
i know june is a real start for me.
lets forget 'em all.

maths is driving me nuts
but i'm loving the mugging moment
I'M A HAPPY NERD(:

♥ much love!